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redshift: tdm #5
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a. don't be a sap.
Good morning, October 25th! Whether you're a confused new arrival or a current resident, you probably had some plans for today, right? Grab breakfast, visit a friend, pick some fruit, explore a new part of the massive city.
Well. Too bad. Because, as every single bot in the city will be telling you the moment you show your face, it's GOOP FESTIVAL DAY! What? You've never heard of it? Preposterous, everyone knows about the Goop Festival, it's one of the most anticipated holidays in Anchor! Haven't you been preparing for this for a week now?
The Goop Festival is a harvest celebration, in particular, a celebration of the sap-producing trees that grow wild in the Park, thick around the edges of the south side of the lake. The bots have been hard at work setting up the festival grounds in the shade of the trees in the balmy fall temperatures. There are spiles tapped into trees with buckets placed underneath that are already half-full of a thick, viscous, amber-colored sap. The bots have also set up troughs of shaved ice with long sticks nearby, with which they will demonstrate for excited residents (you are excited, right?) how to cool the sap in the ice and wrap it around the stick to make it a sort of taffy candy. That's not the only sweet surprise waiting, either.
A long table set up in the grass is loaded down with all sorts of delicious sap-related goodies, ranging from cupcakes with thick globs of sap-flavored frosting to sap-flavored jerky to sap sugar candies, and just about anything else you can imagine. There are a wide variety of offerings that would taste good coated, flavored, or glazed with the sap, which tastes sort of like a caramelized toffee. Another table is laid out that has row upon row of cups, each half-full of the sap, heated lightly to a thinner consistency and served similarly to hot chocolate - at least, if hot chocolate gave you a floaty, happy, hazy sort of feeling. Everything made with this sap does, actually, with the cups of pure sap having a stronger effect and items with less sap content having barely any effect at all.
Does this not sound like your cup of weird tree sap? Too bad. This is the GOOP FESTIVAL, and everything is shut down for this lovely paid vacation day. Spa? Locked down. Kitchens? Locked. Bar? Nope, totally shut down and the server bots are all down at the park. VR Gaming? Too bad, the computers are all shut down. Even roaming the halls and trying to stay out of the way won't help much...be prepared to be dragged down to the park to participate in this mandatory festival! Isn't it exciting?
Well. Too bad. Because, as every single bot in the city will be telling you the moment you show your face, it's GOOP FESTIVAL DAY! What? You've never heard of it? Preposterous, everyone knows about the Goop Festival, it's one of the most anticipated holidays in Anchor! Haven't you been preparing for this for a week now?
The Goop Festival is a harvest celebration, in particular, a celebration of the sap-producing trees that grow wild in the Park, thick around the edges of the south side of the lake. The bots have been hard at work setting up the festival grounds in the shade of the trees in the balmy fall temperatures. There are spiles tapped into trees with buckets placed underneath that are already half-full of a thick, viscous, amber-colored sap. The bots have also set up troughs of shaved ice with long sticks nearby, with which they will demonstrate for excited residents (you are excited, right?) how to cool the sap in the ice and wrap it around the stick to make it a sort of taffy candy. That's not the only sweet surprise waiting, either.
A long table set up in the grass is loaded down with all sorts of delicious sap-related goodies, ranging from cupcakes with thick globs of sap-flavored frosting to sap-flavored jerky to sap sugar candies, and just about anything else you can imagine. There are a wide variety of offerings that would taste good coated, flavored, or glazed with the sap, which tastes sort of like a caramelized toffee. Another table is laid out that has row upon row of cups, each half-full of the sap, heated lightly to a thinner consistency and served similarly to hot chocolate - at least, if hot chocolate gave you a floaty, happy, hazy sort of feeling. Everything made with this sap does, actually, with the cups of pure sap having a stronger effect and items with less sap content having barely any effect at all.
Does this not sound like your cup of weird tree sap? Too bad. This is the GOOP FESTIVAL, and everything is shut down for this lovely paid vacation day. Spa? Locked down. Kitchens? Locked. Bar? Nope, totally shut down and the server bots are all down at the park. VR Gaming? Too bad, the computers are all shut down. Even roaming the halls and trying to stay out of the way won't help much...be prepared to be dragged down to the park to participate in this mandatory festival! Isn't it exciting?
b. familiar ground.
Every year in Anchor near the end of October, there's a very strange interaction between the protective dome over the city and seasonal radiation surges that happen in the wastelands. Some complicated combination of refraction and reflection means that for the last few days of the month, residents will experience some of the more benign effects of the red shift inside the city.
Did we say benign? Because while there may not be any dangerous radiation to melt your skin off, there are some mind-bending dangers. Characters experiencing the shift will find the world becomes distorted, warped, impossible to navigate; they are enveloped in auditory and visual hallucinations, and can become so disoriented that they can't even recognize people they've known for years. And characters will find that the citywide shift brings in slivers of other universes, little slices of places characters have never seen before...or places so familiar they make the heart beat hard with joy or fear.
And just like in the wastelands, the things that show up in these shifts are all too real. Characters may find themselves walking through a door into a scene straight from home, or from someone else's home. Whether it's a favorite place to share with a new friend, or the nightmare landscape you almost died in, complete with the monster that almost killed you, be careful. Everything you experience here is real, and if you die in the shift, you die for real.
Of course, the city has its own safety measures in place - residents experiencing the hallucinations and appearances of items and places from other worlds may find themselves locked down in the room they're in, trapped with the otherworldly effects of the shift.
Did we say benign? Because while there may not be any dangerous radiation to melt your skin off, there are some mind-bending dangers. Characters experiencing the shift will find the world becomes distorted, warped, impossible to navigate; they are enveloped in auditory and visual hallucinations, and can become so disoriented that they can't even recognize people they've known for years. And characters will find that the citywide shift brings in slivers of other universes, little slices of places characters have never seen before...or places so familiar they make the heart beat hard with joy or fear.
And just like in the wastelands, the things that show up in these shifts are all too real. Characters may find themselves walking through a door into a scene straight from home, or from someone else's home. Whether it's a favorite place to share with a new friend, or the nightmare landscape you almost died in, complete with the monster that almost killed you, be careful. Everything you experience here is real, and if you die in the shift, you die for real.
Of course, the city has its own safety measures in place - residents experiencing the hallucinations and appearances of items and places from other worlds may find themselves locked down in the room they're in, trapped with the otherworldly effects of the shift.
c. the virus.
A few weeks ago, people in Anchor started getting a case of the sniffles. While some of the earliest cases might be clearing up, there are still a few people suffering, or people freshly infected by those who were sick earlier, including some of the new arrivals who may not even be feeling it yet.
Which may make the cause of some unexpected 'glitches' around the city a little unclear. Residents who are feeling the effects of the illness, or who are infected but not showing symptoms yet (or anymore) will find that their access to certain parts of the city are restricted. Suddenly, automatic doors aren't opening for them, as if they were ghosts, particularly when they try to access anything that may facilitate transmission of the virus. Suddenly, only some of the residents of the city will find they can't get into half of the MedBay, or the spa, the kitchens, the VR or games rooms, the bar...anywhere people gather or eat or sit close together.
Residents may put together that it's related to the illness some of them have been experiencing over the past few weeks, but it might take a while, since these safety and security measures are affecting people who are showing no symptoms yet. Be prepared for a few days of paranoia while seemingly perfectly healthy people are locked out of common areas. What does the computer know that residents don't? Are these people security risks? Is it a system glitch? What could be going on?
Which may make the cause of some unexpected 'glitches' around the city a little unclear. Residents who are feeling the effects of the illness, or who are infected but not showing symptoms yet (or anymore) will find that their access to certain parts of the city are restricted. Suddenly, automatic doors aren't opening for them, as if they were ghosts, particularly when they try to access anything that may facilitate transmission of the virus. Suddenly, only some of the residents of the city will find they can't get into half of the MedBay, or the spa, the kitchens, the VR or games rooms, the bar...anywhere people gather or eat or sit close together.
Residents may put together that it's related to the illness some of them have been experiencing over the past few weeks, but it might take a while, since these safety and security measures are affecting people who are showing no symptoms yet. Be prepared for a few days of paranoia while seemingly perfectly healthy people are locked out of common areas. What does the computer know that residents don't? Are these people security risks? Is it a system glitch? What could be going on?
c. the network.
Need to get hold of someone, call for help, ask the city at large a question? Need to warn a friend not to leave their apartment unless they want to be forcibly press-ganged into the Goop Festival? Maybe you need to hold your sat phone up to whatever crazy thing you're seeing and send out a recording to double-check if your eyes are deceiving you and what you're looking at is real?
Whatever the reason, the network is going strong, so feel free to include a post to it in your top-levels.
Whatever the reason, the network is going strong, so feel free to include a post to it in your top-levels.
Mod Note: The "familiar ground" prompt will be active between October 29th and October 31st; "the virus" prompt will be active until the next introductory mingle, which will be kicking off the second part of the illness plot.
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But there's no equivocating or uncertainty in what Carlisle is saying. He doesn't want to be here, and there are other places he can be. So Reynir gives a big shrug and accepts it. ]
Okay, if you say so.
[ Maybe when they're away from here the other man will cheer up a bit. The dog, as if understanding they are about to leave, trots over to Reynir's heels, fluffy tail held aloft. A little smile makes its way onto Reynir's freckled face, and he brightly admits: ]
I wanted to show you the rest, anyway.
[ And with that he's leading the way, out the gate and into those trees. They seem to take up less space on the way back than they did coming in - but then, that can happen sometimes. It's only a moment or two amidst those trees before they're coming out to the edge of Carlisle's zone; beyond it is a vast stretch of perfectly flat water, under a huge, crystal-clear night sky. The stars are bright and just a little eerie, and the place is quiet, without a hint of wind. What's more, it doesn't really smell of water - not the warm vegetation of a lake or the tang of salt from an ocean; there are no sounds, no smells, no nothing. It's an in-between place that isn't really a place at all.
Not really thinking about it, Reynir keeps on ahead, taking a few steps out onto the water, seeming completely unfazed by the fact that he's walking across the top of it, sending out little ripples that quickly calm back to that perfect mirrored surface once more. He glances over his shoulder at Carlisle and says: ]
This is the way through.
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He stops as his foot hits the water, stepping back once, then again in quick succession as his attention is drawn up to the water, to Reynir standing on it, then to the vast, empty sky above them. They remain on the vast night sky for several seconds, wide with terror, the glowing energy housed within them bright, agitated.]
R-r-r-r-r-Rey-n-n-n—
[That poor attempt at Reynir's name goes unfinished as Carlisle is certain the sky will swallow him whole if he stays there another minute. His legs tremble visibly, giving way beneath him; he scuttles clumsily toward the trees, clambering to his feet as he darts to the nearest one. Rather than hiding behind it, he presses his forehead to the trunk, his hands at his temples to close out the world around him. With the unnatural still of the in-between place, his anxious murmuring carries.]
It's not real it's not real it's not real it's fine it's fine this is fine it isn't real it's not real it's not real you're fine you're fine you're here you're here you're here you're fine—
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...but there's nothing. Nothing in the sky, nothing beneath the surface of the water lurking, nothing. And his fylgja, crucially, is sitting at his heels, tongue sticking out dumbly, fluffy tail wagging. No sign of distress there at all.
Reynir looks back over just in time to see Carlisle getting up from where he'd fallen and cowering behind a tree. He quickly comes after him, calling out: ]
Carlisle, what- are you alright?
[ But he is so clearly not alright. When Reynir comes closer he hears what he's saying, sees the way Carlisle is hiding his face and shaking all over like a leaf. He reaches out instinctively to put a hand on Carlisle's back, to rub it gently, but he remembers at the last moment Carlisle isn't really fond of being touched. So he withdraws, face fretful and pale, and asks, softly: ]
What's wrong, what happened? Carlisle, please- talk to me!
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It's too open. It-it-it feels as though it will- it will sw- swallow me whole. The sky and- and the sea, and it's just- there's nothing there. It's not real. It's not real it's not real it's not real.
[His breath catches in his throat; though his body curls tighter against the tree, his head turns slightly, allowing him to search Reynir's eyes for answers. He can regret having been sour with the young mage before for barging into his dreams when he's not being threatened by absolute, unreasonable terror.]
It can't- it can't hurt us, can it? It can't hurt anyone just- just being a sky, but what if it can? You said it could aff-f-f-fect us!
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Carlisle, I'm so sorry to scare you. They can't hurt you. That ocean, the sky - they're harmless. I visit them every night, and nothing bad has ever happened.
[ His voice is thick with emotion, worry and sadness and regret. He doesn't know why these things are sources of terror for Carlisle - if there is a reason - and he can't really imagine it. To him, there is no more restful place than that tranquil expanse of water.
But there's no questioning the way Carlisle is shaking like a leaf from fear, hiding his face and only peering out the tiniest amount. ]
We - can't visit anywhere without getting across. But if you've changed your mind and you want to stay in the garden, I understand.
[ He hopes that if that indeed is the best option, Carlisle's pride won't prevent him from admitting it. But is it really better? The garden had made him so angry and sad and depressed, and the in-between space had made him terrified out of his wits. Which is the greater evil?
Reynir draws in a breath, hesitating, biting his lower lip, then offers: ]
Or. I could lead you across the water. Will it be easier, with your eyes closed, holding my hand or onto my shoulders? I wouldn't leave your side the whole time, and I could tell you once we're across. And I promise you, I wouldn't let any harm come to you.
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The next offer fares much better: Reynir will lead him away, cross the water and beneath the sky that he insists has never harmed him. He once described Reynir as guileless, didn't he? The lad surely wouldn't lie to him, not even to assuage his panic. His breathing slows in tandem with his abating tremors as he convinces himself he must leave, lest he be abandoned by the one aspect of this world that is real. That, as it turns out, is the most terrifying prospect of all, one that reminds him too much of the Land Beyond Living, of his many dreams that trapped him there when he was still alive.
Peeling himself away from the tree, Carlisle gives Reynir one last, desperate look before closing his eyes again. His voice is barely above a whisper when he speaks, low as though the vastness of the horizon would hear them if he were any louder. For as much as he tries to close himself off in the waking world, he is painfully vulnerable in dreams.]
I- I know it is still there, still looming all around us, but- but it is better if I don't see. Please don't leave me here, Reynir. I cannot stay here.
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So when Carlisle pleads with him not to go, Reynir answers swiftly and with conviction: ]
I won't. I'm not going to leave you, I promise.
[ He glances up and out in the direction they will be going, and then back at Carlisle, still trembling slightly but with his eyes shut tight. ]
I am gonna touch your shoulder and hold your hand, though.
[ That warning given, Reynir lays one hand on Carlisle's shoulder and reaches over to take Carlisle's hand with the other so he can guide him. Once he's done that, he presses gently to get Carlisle moving. He figures that silence will only make the lack of vision all the worse and he doesn't want to give Carlisle's imagination time to cook up any terror or imagine it hears the sound of anything threatening. So he keeps up a steady stream of words even as the two of them start walking like that - tentative for the first few steps but quickly becoming quite brisk - the quicker they get there, the sooner it's all over. ]
There's actually a silly game like this that we used to play in my village where you would start in a particular spot and one person would shut their eyes and someone else would lead them and if you were being led you had to try to keep track of where you were and if you were doing the leading you had to try to get them turned around and at some point you stopped and the person with their eyes closed had to guess like, oh I'm at the top of the hill near that broken down old stone wall or oh I'm right outside Reynir's house...
[ Reynir keeps going even as they step off the land and onto the flat surface of the water. He knows just where he is going, and that the journey shouldn't take all that long at all. Already up ahead he can see that shimmer, and beyond it, the rich green hills that look just like Iceland.
It's a little bit sad, that he won't get to show Carlisle more of this place, explore, but Reynir is adaptable. He would much rather get Carlisle somewhere he feels safe and happy than anything else. ]
...and it might sound like that's boring but we all lived there all our lives and we know the village back to front so it took an awful lot of work to get us confused, but it did happen now and then, there was this one girl in particular who was so good at it, I've got no idea what her secret was, honestly I would expect magic but she was always a terrible liar so there's no way she was a mage all that time and just hiding it from everyone...
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And so he focuses on Reynir's words, letting them fill the void that would otherwise be filled with his overwhelming fears. He's calmer with every step; he almost feels like opening his eyes. Opening one just a crack, he finds that no, maybe he's not quite ready for that, his hand tightening on Reynir's. He's not much for hand-holding, figurative or literal -- he's not used to being touched in general, as it's not recommended for someone whose primary work is channeling through his hands -- but he stifles his discomfort, far more unnerved by the thought of being left behind.
Putting his free hand over his eyes to avoid further temptation, he forces himself to try to picture what it is his companion is describing. Unfortunately, Carlisle is not terribly imaginative, despite his best efforts.]
Wh- why would someone hide they were a m- mage? It doesn't sound taboo, from how- from how you've spoken of it.
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No, not at all! The exact opposite. Mages exist because we've been chosen by the gods. It's a blessing to have a mage in your community. I guess the only reason someone would is if they didn't want to help out? It's sort of considered your responsibility if you're a mage to serve people. Make runes for farmers to help keep their sheep from wandering off or help cure a toothache or whatever people need.
[ He knows that is what his mother had expected of him as soon as she found out he was a mage. And perhaps he should feel more guilty from leaving that responsibility behind. But... things are good in his village. There are other places that need him more. And he wants more than that life. ]
Honestly, she was probably just cheating somehow. Everybody else probably knew how, too. I've always been sort of bad at being able to tell when people are tricking me or hiding stuff Gullible, I guess, is the word I'm looking for.
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DEFINITELY NOT SOMETHING THAT APPLIES BETWEEN THESE TWO.Reynir lets out a happy sigh as they move through the invisible barrier, stepping off the water and into a completely different landscape. It is still open country, but there are big hills and the sky is filled with huge puffy white clouds making quick progress. There are some shaggy sheep a few feet away, and a landscape full of hills and rocks and grass and moss, the whole thing so very familiar.
Without letting go, Reynir squeezes Carlisle's hand gently and says: ]
Aaaaand we're through. You can open your eyes now.
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Given the way he's still covering his eyes, lest he be petrified by the open space all around them, the answer is a resounding no. Even when Reynir says they're in the clear, he hesitates; however, when he finally does manage to peek at the promised land around them, Carlisle finds himself pleasantly surprised, stunned into outright awe. Clouds fill the open sky above them, blocking out portions of it and casting shadows on the grassy knolls below. Hills rise up in all directions, their vivid, green pastures dotted with rocky crags and woolly sheep. It's not a terrifying flatland devoid of life like the Land Beyond Living, but a welcoming expanse of color and warmth like Bear Den itself -- well, like Bear Den once was.
He's so taken aback he just stares, his eyes watering, though if those are tears or from how bright it is, he does not say. He's even forgotten to release Reynir's hand.]
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When he sees that Carlisle seems to be taking in the view without another breakdown that might make it necessary to try another area entirely (Reynir had already half-planned to try Onni's, next, if this was no better than the last), Reynir tugs gently, pulling Carlisle towards a little hollow between two steeper hills, where the ground is shadowed and there are almost walls of mossy earth enclosing a slightly cooler, darker place.
How many times had Reynir stretched out in little hollows like this, to nap for a few minutes while the sheep grazed, as he was growing up. As they move, the dog stays at their heels, seeming content to shadow them but not utter any more ominous pronouncements for the moment. ]
Carlisle...?
[ Reynir's voice is careful, concerned, tentative. He gestures to a soft place on the earth, where Carlisle can sit, if he wants to. He still hasn't released his hand. ]
Will this... be alright? If you want... we can stay here, until you wake up. I won't leave your side. I promise.
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Wha- oh. Oh yes, it's- sorry. Sorry sorry sorry, I- I don't know what came over me.
[He smiles a bit sheepishly as he continues to stare, finally releasing Reynir's hand and pulling off his glasses, pawing at his eyes with his palm. When he does sit, it's less because he was offered a spot, and more because his legs just seem to give out. He finds his voice again after a moment, his earnestness showing more than he'd like, but given Reynir is the one who brought him to this place -- and put up with him on the journey over -- he feels it necessary to be truthful.]
I'm not... used to this. In dreams. To see things so bright, and so much like home.
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These are the only kind of dreams I know.
[ Reynir sprawls out, comfortable, hoping if he telegraphs his feeling of safety enough, it will calm Carlisle down, too. He looks over at his friend, still surprised to be seeing this younger version of him, unveiled, healthier...
What had happened, between when he picked up this inner vision of who he is, and the Carlisle that Reynir now knows in the Anchor? Was it only (only!) the destruction of his home by necromancers? Had there been more, tragedies befalling him, personally?
But how could he possibly ask that? ]
Well, I guess that's not entirely true. I've had some omens of the future that were... pretty terrifying, actually.
[ A mild way of putting it, considering they usually involved warnings of imminent horrific death if he didn't do something right away. The first one in particular, back when he'd just found out he was a mage and didn't understand what was happening, had been... a very bad time.
Tentatively, he turns to Carlisle, asks: ]
Is that the kind of thing you're talking about?
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So often, I see what must be the Land Beyond Living. It is barren, colorless. A vast, empty expanse devoid of life. It is a plane where remorse and guilt are one's only company. It is where the twice-cursed go when we die, isn't it?
[He asks that as if he doesn't know, but doesn't seem to be asking Reynir so much as just talking to himself. He shakes his head again. No, what happens to the twice-cursed when they die is far worse than that.]
I imagine your omens must be just as frightening. Not like this place. It's peaceful. Better than I thought it would be, frankly.
[Though everything is an improvement over the terrifying ocean.]
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Then, Carlisle says something really interesting.
Reynir hears it. That crucial, unmistakable 'we'. Whatever being twice-cursed is, if it ends a person up in a realm of remorse and guilt and nothing else, it can't be good. And Carlisle hadn't said 'they'. He'd said we. So preoccupied, almost muttering not for Reynir's ears. An unintentional slip, probably.
After a few moments of thought, Reynir doesn't ask what it means. Not yet, anyway. Carlisle has just had a bad fright, and he is new to the dreamspace, powerless and afraid here. Reynir isn't going to ambush him, like that. He will wait, and ask the next time he sees Carlisle awake. Then, he will get his answers.
His answer about omens is somewhat distracted at first, because he's still preoccupied with this new mystery. ]
They're - awful, yeah. But useful, too. I would much rather die in an omen, wake up, and haul ass out of danger than have a pleasant dream and be unaware of what's coming for me.
[ Reynir realizes a moment too soon that maybe his answer was a bit too honest and possibly frightening, so he hastens to add, full attention snapping back to the conversation at hand: ]
I don't see any omens here, now, though. We're safe.
[ Gotta really reinforce that point.
When Carlisle says this plce is better than he thought it would be, a little smile curls one corner of Reynir's mouth. ]
Did I make it sound that terrible?
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Not at all. I simply was not optimistic it would live up to expectations, is all.
[He does wonder what it is Reynir means when he says he'd prefer to die in an omen, though. Is it like dying in a nightmare? Does that happen often to mages like him?]
Are you a seer, then? Or are these omens and foresight common among mages of your world, much like walking into one another's dreams?
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Oh, no, nothing special like that - it's completely common. Just like the dreams, and hearing trolls, and seeing spirits. It doesn't matter where you're from. I guess... there is a little variation between people. I see more omens than Lalli, I think. But not by that much.
[ It's also just possible that Lalli simply doesn't mention them to Reynir, but he doesn't think so. As he becomes more comfortable with the fact that he's a mage, Reynir is starting to recognize his own strengths, and weaknesses. He is receptive to lots of visions, and can navigate the dreamspace easily and efficiently. Lalli and Onni can't cross that open water without him nearby, are more closed off to omens - but then, that means they are more protected from malevolent spirits, and in combat both of them far outstrip Reynir. ]
It's not always that easy to know what they mean. Sometimes it's really clear, like, hey there are ghosts here, stupid, better leave before they try to eat you. But sometimes it's really abstract. Just - images. Places I don't recognize. Feelings. It can be hard, figuring out how they connect.
[ A sheep meanders over towards them and bends its head, beginning to chew idly at the hem of Carlisle's coat. Reynir reaches over to untangle a little snarl of grass that's gotten stuck to its little horn. He wants to ask more about the Land Beyond the Living, but he doesn't want to approach it directly. So he asks: ]
Have you... always not liked big open spaces like that?
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I was born surrounded by mountains and forests. My affliction meant it best that I not stray far from home. I was already afraid of what lay beyond our estate's walls well before I had reason to be. And being haunted by a place so vast and so cold when I slept, night after night, year after year -- I was done no favors.
[He shakes his head, doing a poor job of hiding his discomfort.]
Did you know that beyond Anchor's walls is a wasteland? So massive, so empty. So much like it.
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Affliction? You... were ill? Are ill?
[ He is playing dumb just slightly, but for good reason. He is giving Carlisle a potential out, if he wants to merely wave it off as something like that. The young mage's green eyes are intent, however, wide and credulous and unafraid. He wants to know more. He wants to understand. ]
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I was. Still am, I suppose.
[He used to hide his affliction, lest people judge him before even knowing his name; now he uses his affliction to hide what he is. It's so much easier to talk about his condition now that he has worse troubles to deal with, and he'd rather claim to be ill than undead, affected rather than an abomination in a human skin.]
It is a curse, a rare condition that has defined my existence, and despite everything, continues to do so. I did not always wear a veil, you see.
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I don't really know much about curses. Does that mean... someone did this to you? Or is it a thing you're born with, that goes in families?
[ Neither possibility is exactly great. Reynir doesn't even consider that it might be the side effect of something else entirely. It doesn't occur to him that Carlisle might be using this to conceal some worse secret. Reynir is honest enough that it can be hard for him to imagine a lack of it in other people. Even this, something Carlisle failed to mention... well it's so personal. Of course, he didn't bring it up at first to new people around him. ]
I - I thought... I assumed it was some kind of religious garb. Do all the priests in your world not wear them?
[ Defined his existence. So this is something huge, something that had shaped Carlisle as a person. He'd said it was the reason he never strayed far from home, that it has something to do with his dreams and possibly what afterlife he will go to? ]
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[He gestures to his current outfit, having gone for the easiest answer first. The other is more complicated.]
As for my condition, it was not passed through my bloodline, nor was it placed upon me by an individual -- or I don't believe it to have been. No one knows just why it is the twice-cursed are afflicted the way they are. Some say we are damned for having wasted a god's time, while others believe we drew so near to our end that our bodies themselves are trapped somewhere on the precipice of life and death.
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Still, sometimes these things need to be coaxed into the light slowly, and he has time to spare. ]
So, then why did your curse mean you had to wear a veil?
[ He isn't going to assume it's a thing all twice-cursed wear, now, but is just going to ask directly what the connection is. Maybe it's a social norm, but maybe it's only Carlisle, for reasons he doesn't yet know. ]
Drew near your end? So... the affliction comes from nearly dying, and getting stuck between the two?
[ He can't imagine how that would work for a body but for a soul, he can imagine it. It's a bit like what had happened to the ghosts of those people who had been given the false cure, during the initial outbreak. They had died before they could be transformed to trolls, but their souls had still been trapped outside of their afterlife, too present, but not able to pass on. Of course, they hadn't been living the way that Carlisle is...
...or at least, Reynir had assumed he is. But perhaps that was wrong? Perhaps he is some kind of ghost, even back at the Anchor? ]
I know it's rude to ask so many questions I just - I want to understand, because you're my friend.
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Are we? Friends, I mean?
[He asks that not like someone who would rather not be friends, but as a man who is honestly uncertain. He spent most of his life in relative isolation, his emotions guarded when not in the privacy of his estate, everyone kept at arm's length due to the superstitions behind the twice-cursed. People knew who he was because of his position at the church, knew of him because of his family name, but they didn't know Carlisle himself; those in Bear Den knew him his entire life, but didn't know his favorite dish, his hobbies outside of his work, his favorite kind of tea. It suited Carlisle well enough in life, as everyone -- himself included -- thought the twice-cursed were better off in seclusion, as anyone close to them was likely to suffer from the malady and misfortune that surrounded them.
But... he has always liked the idea, been envious of those who could make those kinds of connections without worrying what ruin they might bring to others. He believed the rumors: it was hard not to when his father died so soon after his affliction manifested, his uncles vanishing but a few years later. After that, he was the only Longinmouth left, and with no one to say otherwise, it was easy to assume the old tales and rhymes about the twice-cursed were entirely and utterly true.
And so he gives Reynir an earnest look, his question genuine.]
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So he gets that Carlisle isn't really the life of the party. But he doesn't understand how overdue it is or how few friends Carlisle has ever had. He just gives a little shrug, smiling in a lopsided way. ]
Yeah. We are.
[ Like it's simple to say the words, natural to want to have that kind of relationship with Carlisle. And as far as Reynir's concerned, it really is.
But he realizes now it's not something they'd talked about, so he gives Carlisle an out, just in case: ]
I mean, as long as that's okay with you. I know sometimes I get on people's nerves. But I would really like to be friends.
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