[ allison relaxes a little, relieved that ben isn't angry, confused, or upset by allison's uncharacteristically long-winded and honest text messages. ben, it seems like, is actually listening to her concerns, not immediately dismissing them or taking them personally or turning them back on her. she feels, for the first time in a long while, truly heard, even though she isn't technically speaking. allison isn't one hundred percent convinced that cole isn't a danger -- ben's testimony, while usually reliable, isn't enough to make allison certain. vanya was usually pretty clear-headed, too.
but it's enough for now, enough to let allison smile a little when ben refers to cole's hat as "stupid big," enough to feel happy for ben, really happy, when ben says that cole understands him, that cole isn't afraid of ben or ben's powers, that he makes ben feel good. she wants ben to have all that. and she wants it to last, wants ben to have it in a way that doesn't end up hurting him in the long run. she knows what it's like to feel the need to be loved, to be understood, and how good it feels once you've finally gotten that love. and how bad it feels once it's taken away. ]
If he makes you feel good, then I feel good about him. Really.
[ that's the text that allison means to send, followed by the text that the truth gas makes her send: ]
But also like I'll probably ask around and try to get to know him a little better because it's hard to believe that someone is a good person until you see it for yourself you know?
[ allison grimaces a little, trying to just shrug off the fact that she just told her brother that she's going to run a background on his boyfriend. no big deal! that's totally normal, right? ]
Also wait what he can talk to the tentacles??
[ allison isn't just going to let ben say that without some follow-up questions -- she's always believed that while ben wasn't a monster, the weird interdimensional creatures definitely were, and that communicating with them was probably impossible. ]
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but it's enough for now, enough to let allison smile a little when ben refers to cole's hat as "stupid big," enough to feel happy for ben, really happy, when ben says that cole understands him, that cole isn't afraid of ben or ben's powers, that he makes ben feel good. she wants ben to have all that. and she wants it to last, wants ben to have it in a way that doesn't end up hurting him in the long run. she knows what it's like to feel the need to be loved, to be understood, and how good it feels once you've finally gotten that love. and how bad it feels once it's taken away. ]
If he makes you feel good, then I feel good about him. Really.
[ that's the text that allison means to send, followed by the text that the truth gas makes her send: ]
But also like I'll probably ask around and try to get to know him a little better because it's hard to believe that someone is a good person until you see it for yourself you know?
[ allison grimaces a little, trying to just shrug off the fact that she just told her brother that she's going to run a background on his boyfriend. no big deal! that's totally normal, right? ]
Also wait what he can talk to the tentacles??
[ allison isn't just going to let ben say that without some follow-up questions -- she's always believed that while ben wasn't a monster, the weird interdimensional creatures definitely were, and that communicating with them was probably impossible. ]