[ Yeah. Yeah, those options sound pretty accurate. Though he has to wonder how much anyone actually could help him carry this. Kaidan could, maybe - he's never known anyone so resilient, and she always could read him like an open book. Anyone else, though? Hm.
The suggestion that they leave takes a moment to register in his mind, but when it does, his relief is palpable. Carlisle's satisfied for now, and offering him an out. Thank God.
But as he's about to agree, the portrait catches his eye one last time, the ghosts of the past smiling down at him. And it occurs to him, seeing them all together again, united, happy - that it's not just the Paradigm that he misses. It's the Paradigm. The lofty ideals. The dream of a better world. The hope. It was poisoned from the start, of course, he knows that now. There's a lot he knows now. There's so much he would do differently, if he had it to do over...
... He thinks, not for the first time, of Mallus.
He tears his eyes away, glances to Carlisle briefly, then to the doorway on the opposite side of the room. ]
no subject
The suggestion that they leave takes a moment to register in his mind, but when it does, his relief is palpable. Carlisle's satisfied for now, and offering him an out. Thank God.
But as he's about to agree, the portrait catches his eye one last time, the ghosts of the past smiling down at him. And it occurs to him, seeing them all together again, united, happy - that it's not just the Paradigm that he misses. It's the Paradigm. The lofty ideals. The dream of a better world. The hope. It was poisoned from the start, of course, he knows that now. There's a lot he knows now. There's so much he would do differently, if he had it to do over...
... He thinks, not for the first time, of Mallus.
He tears his eyes away, glances to Carlisle briefly, then to the doorway on the opposite side of the room. ]
Couldn't agree more.