He didn't do anything wrong? If only Onni knew. Lalli did everything wrong. He understands what's happening now: Onni is not infected, it's an illusion, it's his own mind playing tricks on him--it's his own mind punishing him. Making him confront his guilt because he hasn't yet paid his dues.
He has to have the image of Onni, doomed, seared in his mind's eye because he hadn't done anything for Tuuri, hadn't learned his lesson.
How can he explain this? There are no possible words, even if his brain worked like a normal person's. Nothing to truly articulate the depths of what he's feeling. The hole inside him howls. The wrong person came back.
He manages to choke out:]
Tuuri.
[Barely said aloud. Practically inaudible. But loaded with all the guilt that Lalli can't express.
You wanted to know what he did wrong, Onni? That's what.]
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He didn't do anything wrong? If only Onni knew. Lalli did everything wrong. He understands what's happening now: Onni is not infected, it's an illusion, it's his own mind playing tricks on him--it's his own mind punishing him. Making him confront his guilt because he hasn't yet paid his dues.
He has to have the image of Onni, doomed, seared in his mind's eye because he hadn't done anything for Tuuri, hadn't learned his lesson.
How can he explain this? There are no possible words, even if his brain worked like a normal person's. Nothing to truly articulate the depths of what he's feeling. The hole inside him howls. The wrong person came back.
He manages to choke out:]
Tuuri.
[Barely said aloud. Practically inaudible. But loaded with all the guilt that Lalli can't express.
You wanted to know what he did wrong, Onni? That's what.]